I keep looking at those pics and thinking how utterly gross I look and then what do I go and do? I've eaten 10 jelly teddy bear things that we had in the cupboard. I am definitely an emotional eater.
I got the Paul McKenna Easy Weight Loss system delivered today - 'won' it on Ebay for £29 so I'll watch them tonight in the hope that it'll get rid of the self destruct button in my brain which I hate. I hate being fat so WHY do I spoil the bloody diet on only the 2nd day? I'm not going to let the devil inside win - I'm off to drink a 2l bottle of water to hopefully flush those teddy bears out hehe. I sound deranged talking about flushing teddies!
Happy dieting all x
Tuesday, 31 July 2007
Monday, 30 July 2007
Pics
Ugh - if these don't inspire me, nothing will! Here are my 'before' pics ie today. I'm currently a size 16 although looking at me semi naked, you'd think I was a size 50. I hope to be a size 12 when I'm finished on CD. I really hope my post-pregnancy (2 years ago haha) jelly belly disappears, too. Also, I HATE HATE HATE the size of my boobs. No matter what Gok bloody Wan says about bazookas, baps etc - big, saggy knockers are not attractive at all. In fact, if I lose the weight, I'm going to treat myself to a boob lift/boob transplant/whatever the plastic surgeon recommends!
I think my bf thinks I'm bonkers asking him to take these pics - he doesn't know about the blog yet and I'm not sure I'll tell him as I'll probably use this as a relationship analyser diary, too!
Monday 30 July
OK, so I'm thinking that starting a blog/diary kind of thing will help me release some pent up thoughts/feelings/rants etc, particularly about my weight and the way it makes me feel and also my journey to dump the blubber by the side of the road!
Today I've started on the Cambridge diet (CD) with a total of 55lbs to lose. That seems like LOADS at the moment but once it starts coming off and I see the results I'm sure I'll feel better than I do today. I actually registered with my CD counsellor last Weds but didn't start until today - Monday is a good day to start, right? :-)
I'm hoping that losing weight will give me my self-esteem back and stop me being a moody cow to my (very patient) boyfriend. I know he'll miss my cooking for a while but hey, he'll gain a gorgeous new girlfriend in a few months. I'm sure it's worth it!
I'm going to get my bf to take a 'before' picture of me when he gets home from work and stick it up on the blog to remind me of everything I don't want to be anymore!
Happy Monday all x
Today I've started on the Cambridge diet (CD) with a total of 55lbs to lose. That seems like LOADS at the moment but once it starts coming off and I see the results I'm sure I'll feel better than I do today. I actually registered with my CD counsellor last Weds but didn't start until today - Monday is a good day to start, right? :-)
I'm hoping that losing weight will give me my self-esteem back and stop me being a moody cow to my (very patient) boyfriend. I know he'll miss my cooking for a while but hey, he'll gain a gorgeous new girlfriend in a few months. I'm sure it's worth it!
I'm going to get my bf to take a 'before' picture of me when he gets home from work and stick it up on the blog to remind me of everything I don't want to be anymore!
Happy Monday all x
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